Shanice666 B2H!~ : April, 2009

4/19/2009

i joined the busy work life that i never understand that i never wanted to be one

yet bcoz of better offer in not only $ but also better perspect i joined

less than 2 months

i worked 2 saturdays, weekdays till 10pm once, till 9.30pm once, till 8pm twice or three times

and even i can leave at 5pm (8 hrs work) i usually leave at near 7pm (work 10hrs) exclusive 1hr lunch.. no dinner of course

sigh.. started to feel sian

not only bcoz work late

but it seem like it never end

and the mental part is sad

keep triggering btw "should i work late to finish it? or i can't finish" and "i want to go back home"

work can never be finished.. yet go home back earlier might only soak myself in drama

so how?

work or life?

responsibility to company or to myself?

we seem to be educated to be more responsible to work

otherwise why i feel guilty in not working late

if work can't be finished within 8hrs after i put in as much afford as possible, work schedule should be prolonged right?

instead of absorbing my unpaid overtime work

i dunno.. i really don't.. coz everyone seem 'fine' to work more to company

sian..

i miss my ex colleagues and my life..

yet.. i really don't want to go back the previous unsecured work

nothing is perfect

we just hope tmr will be better